I Can’t Make You Love Me – Tank

I was going to wait until tomorrow before I post something else but, I happen to be a very impatient child.

It’s past 2 am and I am sat on my bed thinking about rubbish that will never in a million years be of any use to me. It’s hard to explain what it is that I am thinking about. Okay, I lied, it is very easy to explain the rubbish in my head right now but, it’s pretty miserable so, I’d rather not.

I heard this song a few months ago and, had it on replay for a while because, that’s what I always do when I hear a new song that is likable. After a while, it just started to irritate me..you know how it works.

Anyway, I told myself that I’ll never have to listen to this song and think about my situation. That it’ll never have anything to do with me and that I wouldn’t ever know all the words to it. Then again, I tell myself things like ‘Aku you’re hotter than Beyonce’ and ‘Einstein ain’t got nothing on me’ so, it’s hard to believe half of the things I tell myself.

I know my two weeks is up and, I’m supposed to be ‘lust-free’ by now but, I’m not. I may talk about it a little less or, stop smiling when I hear your name or, act like I don’t notice you but, it’s all fake. Even faker than the stupid weave I have on right now. All so people don’t look at me like that poor girl that can’t get who she wants. Ugh.

I always say ‘Depression Cometh By Night’ which is why I like to sleep early. I mean, It is five hours past my bedtime but, I’m here thinking about how “I Can’t Make You Love Me”. This isn’t anyone’s fault seeing as “You Can’t Make Your Heart Feel Something It Won’t”.

‘I’ll close my eyes. Then I won’t see THE LOVE YOU DON’T FEEL WHEN YOU’RE HOLDING ME’ has to be my best and most painful line. Only because that’s exactly what I did when….

Love,
A
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My Not So Short Introduction.

Hey beautiful people :). I’d like to formally welcome you to My Insecurities & Co. My name’s Akunna. If you said ‘Akunna Matata’ in your head then please, slap yourself. That’s pretty much all you need to know about me for now.

I’ve been told quite often that I’m an ‘Emotional Writer’ (Whatever that means). However, I have no emotions whatsoever in real life but somehow, when I decide to write, all the emotions just seem to start flooding in. It’s almost magical. I’ve also been referred to as dramatic and crazy and mad and silly and ugly and none of that has anything to do with anything.

So, what am I doing on WordPress? What is the aim of my blog? What are my short term goals? What are my long term goals? (Got that from ‘Think Like A Man’ a movie I will forever love because….) I have this blog for so many reasons but, I’ll only explain one because I just can’t be asked to write a lot today.

You know those thoughts that you have on your mind almost all the time. Those thoughts that you can’t tell the people around you about. Not because you don’t trust them but, because, you tend to feel like they’ll know too much about you. Those thoughts that you can’t write in a diary because they make you seem like a depressed homo Sapien and you’ll be devastated if anyone ever read them. Well, yes I have those thoughts. It’s quite ironic that I have decided to come and share it with the whole world when I can’t risk telling it to my amazing friends. The thing is, writing it in public only allows you to put so much emotion into it. That way, you can’t make it sound so emo and at the same time, you’re not bottling up BS.

I actually had a blog before www.slavetomyemotionss.blogspot.com. Have fun stalking. It’s tres deep and might make you cry….yes, I’m deep like that. I had a few favorites from there. The links are below incase you fancy reading any of them…no pressure.

http://slavetomyemotionss.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/hi-im-girl.html

http://slavetomyemotionss.blogspot.co.uk/2012/07/3-reasons.html

http://slavetomyemotionss.blogspot.co.uk/2012/07/funny-how.html

http://slavetomyemotionss.blogspot.co.uk/2012/08/my-mini-rant.html

Maybe not ‘A Few’

I decided to get a new blog because my blogspot was kind of like a summer project. Just something to keep me busy. It is full of things from my past that I rather not remember. Past emotions. Past feelings. Past lusts. Past situations etc.. A lot of the posts there don’t define me anymore so; it doesn’t feel right keeping it. I still have posts on my laptop that I was just too lazy to blog so, I might publish them later in life…sometime in the future..eventually..Y’know. A new blog to me is like moving on and, I’m a big fan of change and moving on. I like to believe I’ve changed. Not changed but, I’m a newer version of me. Same person just a thousand times more amazing. Well, that’s what I tell myself anyway.

Majority of my posts would be either slightly exaggerated or, the exact opposite of what’s really going on or, something about someone else or, the complete truth or, arrant nonsense. However, you will not be able to tell the difference unless of course we’re close like that.

I really can’t be asked to say anything more so, have fun reading my blog ☺

Love,

A

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