Living With An Emotional Deficiency – III

III. If you promise to hear me out, I’ll explain, Why emotional responses are unhurried. Why I’m numb and expressionless initially. Truth is, I’m not cold. It just takes me time to recollect all my memories of similar incidents I’ve encountered, In movies, tv shows, novels and friends. I sift through the emotions they expressed, …

Living With An Emotional Deficiency – II.

II. I’m not heartless, Just fighting my demons. Just hurting and healing, And healing and hurting. Just stuck in this vicious cycle of hope and helplessness, Yet, I remain expressionless. Get me out of here. A.

Desensitised.

I close my eyes so my body can feel, Shut my heart so my mind can process, Bitter truths my stomach cannot digest. If this wasn’t me, it would be someone else, Somewhere else, maybe something else. So I draw the blinds shut and kill the switches, It’s impossible to think while engulfing all these …

I Hate This.

I hate tears Hate to feel Hate to be knees deep In emotions all so overwhelming And words from acquaintances All so endearing I hate the weakness The helplessness The sense of worthlessness I hate having to depend On friends and family This false sense of familiarity Also having to defend My reason to enjoy …

Why Are You Not Emotional?

There's pain that cannot be relieved with tears, And lost confidence that cannot be reestablished with words. Anger that cannot be quenched with a smile, And depression that cannot fade away with a hug. But most of all, problems that emotions cannot logically solve. I don't want to feel these. A.

Welcome. 

You wear your heart on your sleeve And I don't blame you It's the joy of ignorance Lack of experience Naïveté in its purest form I envy that I envy you I will continue to envy you Until your body begins to slowly wither As these men pass through welcoming doors Only to take from …