Living With An Emotional Deficiency – II.

II. I’m not heartless, Just fighting my demons. Just hurting and healing, And healing and hurting. Just stuck in this vicious cycle of hope and helplessness, Yet, I remain expressionless. Get me out of here. A.

You Write Because You Can’t Speak.

Have you ever had so much to say, You settle for silence? Because your hearts is too full, And your thoughts too complex, To relay on to the simple minded. And so, the weight of your words, Rest heavy on your tongue. It’s impossible to lift. Impossible to speak. You are hushed by your own …

Solitude.

Solitude doesn’t ask what’s wrong, She lets me be. She doesn’t reach out, Or hold me when I’m down. When emotions get the better of me, And I’m left in a puddle of my never ending tears, I don’t feel solitude looking at me through pitiful eyes. She doesn’t pat my back like they do …

Lost And Not Found.

I had lost my innocence trying to persevere, Misplaced my happiness by choosing to stay, Given up my voice listening to yours. Most of all, I lost my compassion trying to guard my heart. I'm not the same person. A.

Desensitised.

I close my eyes so my body can feel, Shut my heart so my mind can process, Bitter truths my stomach cannot digest. If this wasn’t me, it would be someone else, Somewhere else, maybe something else. So I draw the blinds shut and kill the switches, It’s impossible to think while engulfing all these …

Persistence.

I'll keep refuelling this worn out battleship, Until you promise to love me the right way, Until you believe that lie. I'll keep pouring life into our relationship, Until I begin to fade away, Until I begin to die. Love, A x