Just Afraid.

You try to be the best I’ve ever had, But that doesn’t take much effort. You don’t know that, And I’ll never mention it. Not my experience with abuse, Not the insecurities bound to oxygen, flowing through my veins. I’m afraid you’ll be inspired, Afraid you’d come up with new methods of breaking my heart, …

What Do I Do Now?

What do I do now? With this repertoire of unfinished poetry All of these plans for the future What the hell should I do With the messages I typed up but never sent And the ‘I love you’s” I said internally The me too’s and the please stay’s I can’t finish them because I can’t …

Calm

Close your eyes and count to ten. Is life calmer now than it was then? How long have you suffered? Tell me, since when.. Did you choose to shrink yourself? When did this all begin? The world is full of evil, Darling you are not the first to sin. So lift your head up and …

Persistence.

I'll keep refuelling this worn out battleship, Until you promise to love me the right way, Until you believe that lie. I'll keep pouring life into our relationship, Until I begin to fade away, Until I begin to die. Love, A x