The worst thing in life is when you wake up in the morning with tears in your eyes and not a word of the Lord on your tongue
As my pillow soaks and my memory starts flooding back, I cannot help but think my problems are bigger than the one who saved me
While every inch of my body; head, belly, heart and my soul ache
Remind me again why these demons have finally had their way. I rebuked them for Christ sake
I grew up with phrases like
‘You reap what you sow’
But somehow, I reap bitterness and disgrace. Betrayal and the very opposite of compassion
The very opposite of what I envisioned
And I cannot forget. Cannot move on. Cannot help but regret
Every step every move
Every challenge I decided to take on because I thought I understood
The way of life and the balance of good and evil
Do onto others what you want others to do onto you
As simple as it sounds, the practicality of it is untrue
So while I break down and you do nothing but observe
I’d only ask one thing
You’re the one who knows me best so tell me what I deserve
Love doesn’t live here,
A.
Akunna Ezekwem 