Bystander.

You’ve forgotten how to be strong and I’ve been there,
I’ve been here,
I’ve been everywhere in between strong and weak,
Victory and defeat,
The will to live and a deep longing for death to open up her arms and embrace me.
So I understand,
The sudden rush of emotions.
You’re not sad, you’re just going through the motions.
This unwanted rollercoaster.
It gets better then worse,
First a moment of joy and then a pang of pain.
The oh so familiar transition from depression to happiness.
You’re so used to this cycle, it’s both a blessing and a curse.
I can’t tell you how to progress,
Not while it hurts,
Not while it breaks my heart to watch you deal with your broken heart.