Nostalgia.

Nostalgia is the frenemy you cannot evade

She sets in and soon remains established

In the midst of absence

Like an entity of its own

She speaks to me

Remember when..imagine if..

Think about how you felt during…

Phrases I never want to hear again

She takes over my mind

Thinking unthinkable thoughts

Imagining unimaginable images

Maybe I gave up too easily, maybe I should have fought

She physically moves me

Alters my bearing towards sites of remembrance

Nudges me to take one final look

Have one final taste

Experience that final feeling

Attachment? Delusion?

More like pain and all too familiar rejection

Nostalgia opens up a world long forgotten

Memories long buried

She breaks my heart

Every now and again

It hurts because I can’t do anything but watch myself fall apart

Into millions of pieces I could never recover

Love,
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