I don’t know when the pain started
When my insides went cold
And my emotions departed
I don’t know when I reached that threshold
Started eating to mask my pain.
Started laughing to mask my pain.
I cannot tell you when I started suffering
So poor in faith and rich in sorrow
It’s all I can give as a Sunday offering
I cannot tell you if I’m going to want this tomorrow
Started writing to ease my suffering.
Started singing to ease my suffering.
I don’t know when I began to reminisce
When I fell so in love with my false memories
Sealed in with love’s deadly kiss
I don’t know when I became established in dangerous territories
Started drinking to relive my memories.
Started smoking to relive my memories.