Category: Poetry

The plan was to leave for a day
Flee from my sorrow
It didn’t quite work that way
Because I’m here eagerly awaiting tomorrow
I’d say I miss you but, I don’t
I want to tell you how it is
But, my words always stay stuck in my throat
An hour away
And I still can’t keep my thoughts of you at bay
A few kilometers apart
And I am unable to drown my misery in a pack of jammy tarts
I’m looking through my phone book for your number
I would call but, what I want to say to you…I fail to remember
There’s good music playing
Beautiful boys overflowing
However, all of these matter not
Because there is only one man
and after him, I sought

Love,
A
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It’s been raining every second, every hour, every day
Wet, miserable and gloomy all year
Just like the rain, I have been
My map to the land of happiness, I have scrapped and thrown in the bin
I was only ever cheerful in my dreams
The storm is almost over, so it always seems
I knew deep down that this was a reality and I didn’t give a damn
I had to adapt to this so, yesterday in the flood, I swam
Just like the rain, I have been
I am aware that my misery truly comes from within
I feel alone, odd, isolated
For the past few years, I’ve been nothing but underrated
Today however, for the first time in a decade
There’s a small patch of light at the end of my formerly dark passage
A part of me wants to scream out and celebrate my joy
And the other half just wants to sit in the dark reminiscing over perfect little Roy
But you know what they say
‘Make hay while the sun shines’
Or in my case,
‘Cultivate any form of vegetation for as long as the dim illumination at the end of this dark passage decides to go out and diminish any form of hope that you ever had leading to nothing but bastardisation’
The rain might represent my life right now
But now doesn’t last till forever and that’s what this poem is about
Eventually, the sun will come out
So instead of wallowing in the rain all because of one man
I’ll anticipate the sun so, in it I can tan
Just like the rain, I have been
But I have to be strong because I know this battle won’t end until I win.

Love,
A
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I’ve stumbled across the streets of love

Confused, dumbfounded, totally taken aback

How did I get here?

Where do I turn to?

Wish I could just disappear

 

As I walk the path of love, I fail to comprehend

Why this lonely lane never ends

I don’t know what to do or how to act

I know love changes people

And brings about queer decisions

 

As I parade this route of love

I know I should turn around and leave

But if I never experience this now,

I might never get the chance to

 

I’ve come face to face with the streets of love

And I only hope that for once, we happen to be on the same path

I’m never sure about matters of the heart

So, I always have one foot in and one foot out

I’m not sure how this new phenomenon came about

 

With two feet in, I roam the love track

Frantically searching for my other half

The part of you I thought I saw

That’s the part of you

That I want to be true

 

I’m prowling this deserted passage of love a little further

But you’re nowhere to be found

I’m getting worried and my heart’s beating a lot faster

If you happen to perambulate these same streets

Give me a ring…if you still have my number

 

I’m casually but carefully strolling through this terrace called ‘love’

There’s music playing in the background

A few of them unknown, a few of them renowned

They’re all slow and full of meaning

Reminds me of the other night

A few hours before I wandered into these peculiar streets

 

I have set foot into the street of love and I feel alienated

I feel naked but far from exploited

I want to try this, I want to be committed

I might not win the position but at least, I’ve been nominated

 

I’ve discovered the love avenue

And ‘I swear by the moon and the stars and the skies’

That ‘I’ll come and I’ll give without taking’

I don’t want us to be ‘two hearts living in two separate worlds’

 

While I meander through this boulevard of love

I have become selfless, careless, restless, directionless

Everything but, fearless

But I came here for a reason

So, I guess this is the time, the exact season

 

I’m almost at the end of this love street

I know now that I can no longer retreat

I’ve put myself out there; it’s no more a secret

I pray that just maybe, you could be waiting for me at the end of this path

Love,

A

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Soft and tender…his lips were
As he gently placed them on mine
Started off as an innocent peck but, built up into something more intense
He leaned in slowly
Passionately, full of affection
Time for some lip action
His were contracting
As though being set for a pout
Then they opened up
And he moved closer
I suppose I should have done the same
About to set my lips in the pouting position and I was in for a shock
There was a little projection in my mouth
It consumed me
Frantically and purposefully searching for love in my dorsal-cavity
I felt something odd, a bittersweet feeling
Before now, I had considered saliva the number 1 most disgusting human fluid ever
And now there was a slimy tongue in my mouth
Regardless, I loved it…
I loved him
I returned the favor
My tongue shyly reached into his mouth
Searching for passion
Searching for emotion
What it was that I felt for this young gentleman
Then our tongues met
As though two lovers separated for a decade were reunited
It was perplexing but, desirable
Stimulating and that was understandable
I wanted to reach out for him
Grab his jet black permed hair
Entangle my legs around his robust figure
Take a gasp of air
Arch my back inwards in attempt to increase surface contact
I had seen it in the movies
But we were standing
And there was a taxi driver grumpily waiting
It was over in a few minutes
I had done it, now to set a new limit
My body was full of sensation
My lips tingled
My body was trembling, I wondered if he could feel the involuntary vibrations
I pulled away and slid into the back seat
Gave a shy smile to my lover as he began to retreat
He turned away and set off
My eyes stayed fixated on his alluring frame
One last look at the one that I yearn for
One last taste of him
One last first kiss
One last hurtful memory

Love,
A
X

But alas, I feel terrible as I cannot return
All that he has given to me
The adventure and the fun
Because my heart fails to love
And my soul is afraid to get involved
To someone that’s ever so perfect
Someone no normal girl would reject
I’m grateful to God for sending me one that I do not deserve
But, I’ll never be good enough for him
Not now, not ever
Run away young one
Flee from the evil in me that captivates you
Reject the temptation
Say no to the sexual stimulation
Eventually, I’d break your heart and move on to the other
The broken pieces of your heart will you alone gather
Then you’d hate me forever
Run away from me, I plea
Up the hills and across the red sea
Go far away, beyond my radar
Up so high, I wouldn’t be able to reach you with a ladder
Only ’cause for you, I care
I must admit, this is very rare
However if you fail to escape from my captivity
Be sure to get over me and your anxiety
Before I get bored of what we have become
For your own good, abscond

Love,
A
X

I remember the day you left
The day that my world went pitch black
And all the familiar sounds around me suddenly disappeared

I remember the day you left
My misery and all that I felt
Heartbreak, Resentment, I felt like a reject

I remember the day you left
The way that my thoughts were fixated on nothing but you
The manner in which confusion overcame me

I remember the day you left
How my tear glands failed to stop producing tears
And my nostrils thought it acceptable to allow mucus ooze out

I remember the day you left
The crack in my voice and the hate in my heart
My trail of thoughts and the nail I felt piercing though my soul

I remember the day you left
The couples that surrounded me
The joy and laughter emanating from people which I failed to feel

I remember the day you left
The lonely, depressing and endless nights
The ice cold emotionless bed on which I laid on

I remember the day you left
The thunderous sound which echoed when my life fell apart
The minuscule pieces of my heart that I could no longer put together

I remember the day you left
The speed at which the pages of my diary were filled up

with words that couldn’t possible describe what was happening to me
My talent in poetry which I never realized was there

I remember the day you left
The rising of the sun and the going down of my self-esteem
Me lying in bed hoping that this was all a dream

I remember the day you left
The day that the walls came crashing in
And everything came tumbling down on poor old me

I remember the day you left
The hateful words which you uttered
The manner in which you stormed out

I remember the day you left
And each time I do, I feel unbearable agony
I can’t do this, I can’t bear the pain

I remembered the day that you left
The day that you walked out and slammed the doors on my happiness
I remembered my sorrows one last time
And with every ounce of strength in me, I pulled the trigger
Dived into the waters
I hope I look beautiful floating on this peaceful river
I thought of it all and decided I needed everlasting rest
If the news about my passing ever gets to you
I hope you’d be happy that my last memory ever was when you left…me

Love,

A

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